Day 1 

March 13, 2005

My name is Cynthia Blake. I’m 22 and my life is great. I have a beautiful home and a loving boyfriend. I went to Harvard Medical School and graduated with a 4.0 GPA. I thought that I had everything that I ever could want but something was always missing. I could feel it inside of me, along with that I had this little darkness in me that wants to shine through and take over. Doing that would cause the very person I am to be destroyed. My life has always been good and bright but there’s always this part of me that keeps asking am I doing what’s right? Am I living up to my full potential?…

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My first journal entry is done, at the request of my therapist might I add. She feels as if, by some kind of miracle, my writing these will help with whatever is going on inside my head, she might have told me but I forgot. Oops. I have a meeting with her later today but that isn’t for a couple of hours though…

*3 Days Before*

She lazily strolled into her bathroom and just stared at the figure standing in front of her very eyes. She looked very skinny, with pale and messy dirty blonde hair that flowed down her spine. She would be very beautiful if she wouldn’t hide behind the people around her and take pride in her appearance. She sighed and hopped in the shower, but then there was a loud crashing sound coming from downstairs. She quickly finished up and threw on a bathrobe and stood at the top of the stairs. 

“Hello?..” she said softly, afraid of what might happen if they heard.

She started to walk down the stairs slowly making sure the stairs didn’t make any noise. Shaking, she’s holding her bathrobe tight she reaches the bottom of the stairs and looks around, terrified. All the lights were off and she couldn’t find the light switch, she started towards the kitchen which is where the shattering sound originated from. She stopped when she was just a few feet away from the door, and took a deep breath.

She started to pull the door open towards her and then something terrible happened…

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Come back next week for the next part!